I've found myself neglecting my blog as of late. Wrote it off as being busy and what not. I was in Long Beach Monday night through Friday morning, working Friday through Tuesday. Packed week for me, but really I've been neglecting this because I force myself to write down how I'm really feeling, what really has me down, what is really going on in the mess I call my mind. I have an unhealthy habit of running myself ragged when I'm down, or have a lot on my mind. I let things weigh heavily down on me, it's hard to escape it sometimes. So I make myself stay busy to forget it, even if it's for a few seconds. It's unhealthy but better than running to a substance. I'm not saying I have the hardest life, but half the things I go through any other kid my age would spark a joint and hit the bottle then cope with it or try and fight the emotion. I've been feeling a little bit better today. Which is good. I'm covering a friends shift at the shop later today. His birthday was yesterday and asked if I could cover Tuesday(today) for him. I need rest, I was doing well with my sleeping pattern until earlier this week. It's only a matter of time before I'm back to how it was. I've been pushing myself harder and harder on my bike. I figure it will help with the depression, and angst. And it has, today was my mellowest ride this week and it was due to me not being as bummed.
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