Silly Girl I'm Beggin' You...

I find that no other band has made such an impact on my life like the descendents have. No matter how I'm feeling it seems I can listen to the descendents and an album can supplement my mood and feeling. I find great satisfaction and joy listening to this band. This band helps me through alot of tough times, makes sense of my feeling and put's me back into my right state of mind. I find this to be one of the greatest bands of all time, cool to be you to be one of my top 5 favorite albums, and Milo to be a lyrical genius. I have a few band tattoos, but my descendents one is by far my favorite. I love this band so much I had Milo tattooed on my hand. Most of my other band tattoos are in areas easily hidden (shin, ribs, nape of neck) but not my descendents one. I hope to one day be fortunate enough to see them play. Even if it's not an original line up, I could still find peace seeing them. This one's for Frank! Sad to have you pass.

I am weighing me down

I've found myself neglecting my blog as of late. Wrote it off as being busy and what not. I was in Long Beach Monday night through Friday morning, working Friday through Tuesday. Packed week for me, but really I've been neglecting this because I force myself to write down how I'm really feeling, what really has me down, what is really going on in the mess I call my mind. I have an unhealthy habit of running myself ragged when I'm down, or have a lot on my mind. I let things weigh heavily down on me, it's hard to escape it sometimes. So I make myself stay busy to forget it, even if it's for a few seconds. It's unhealthy but better than running to a substance. I'm not saying I have the hardest life, but half the things I go through any other kid my age would spark a joint and hit the bottle then cope with it or try and fight the emotion. I've been feeling a little bit better today. Which is good. I'm covering a friends shift at the shop later today. His birthday was yesterday and asked if I could cover Tuesday(today) for him. I need rest, I was doing well with my sleeping pattern until earlier this week. It's only a matter of time before I'm back to how it was. I've been pushing myself harder and harder on my bike. I figure it will help with the depression, and angst. And it has, today was my mellowest ride this week and it was due to me not being as bummed.

Daze Like Today Can Really Open Your Eyes.

I woke up in a good mood, not tired and got ready for work in a timely manner. Enjoyed some new records with a bowl of cereal then hit the road to the shop. A bit of a windy ride, but made it early and not to sweaty. Did pretty well at the shop. I believe I did 8 piercings. Two of them were sets of ear lobes. Made up for not doing a thing yesterday. Went to Pizza Kiln. Vegan pizza with friends is always a must. Came back to my apartment, some of my friends hadn't seen it yet. Just sat around, shot the shit and listened to some records.They were all pretty stoked on my place. As lame as it may sound that made me feel real good about myself. I often find myself sitting alone, thinking about my situation. And I wonder where it all came from. It's very humbling. I'm 20 and have an awesome apartment, a great career, awesome friends, I'm in the best shape of my life, and am totally on track with my life. Things like this hit you like a ton of bricks and puts things into perspective. I remember talking about living in Downtown for the longest time. I remembering saying I'd move out of my friends parents house, and be piercing full time. I know I won't always have days like this, but I do know I can't let the bad ones get to me. I've been doing that a lot. Letting things get me down. But not today. Today has totally lifted my spirits.

Keep working, Stay busy, Dont think about her

Got a new start on a deadend road

There has been an absence in my updates. About three of four daze. I spent the weekend in Oxnard for this years sound and fury festival. I might have mentioned this in an earlier post. This was my first year attending and I wasn't sure if I was even going to go. I planned on going about three daze prior to the show. Had little to no money due to rent and my cell phone being due, No place to stay, and not a clue on what I was going to do. The weekend turned out to be a lot of fun. We showed up and met with some friends. Ended up staying with them. Which was cool, Always fun times to be had when friends are near. Enjoyed myself, This was a mini vacation. I've been working a lot as of late. It's not like Body Piercings is a very demanding job, as of late it's been slower than usual. But it does take a toll on me. People just think I pot a hole, cram some jewelry and send a client off. It's a lot more than that. believe you me. So I took full advantage of my weekend get away with friends, great bands, circle pits, and lots and lots of stage dives. Sound and fury kicked my ass. Three daze of little sleep, horrible fast food, screaming my lungs stupid, and losing my voice was way worth the swollen right hand, bruises, cuts, scraps, sore back and legs. I'm sure some awesome pictures will surface soon enough. I dove a few time off the giant monitors, one time during Sabertooth Zombie's set with a Sponge Bob Boogie Board. That was fun times. Met a few nice people, Caught up with distant friends, spent my food money on records, and experienced a lifetime's worth of fun in one weekend. Now that I'm back into reality it feels good to reflect back. I got home late Sunday night, slept, work up and went back to sleep, woke up again and realized I was going to be late for work, showered and rode my soar legs and ass off to make it to the shop on time. Had a pretty busy past two daze. I hope this busy streak doesn't fade too soon. I have the next two daze off. I plan on doing some laundry tomorrow morning, a bit of grocery shopping, skating, then it's off the see Iron Age, Creatures, Downpresser, Mammoth Grinder, and Power Trip at Chain. I just saw most of these bands at sound and fury, but their too good to pass up. Sabertooth Zombie is making their way back down from the bay at the end of the month. Should be a great show as always.