Another Nightmare...

Another nightmare, but not like the one from my past, or the previous night. This is the second night I've been stricken with a nightmare. This one was a bit easier on me, this one lasted under a minute. I was being chased on my bike, I have no clue of what I was being chased by, I just remember riding as fast as I could. Feeling my legs burn, my knees pop and legs shake as I press down on my pedals harder. The pain I felt in my dream was so real, just like in a long sprint up hill. I was riding through alley ways and cutting around corners. Skidding my back wheel out to each side to help make the turn easier and help keep my speed up. No matter how hard I rode, how much I pedaled what ever it was that had me riding for dear life was gaining. I finally made a sharp left turn around a building and slammed into a chain link fence. I hit the fence with such force the links holding the chain link to the polls snapped and I feel through. Before I could see what was chasing me I woke up.

10 years

So last night I had a dream...More like a nightmare. It's been ages since I've had a nightmare, I can never remember my dreams, so it's a rare occasion when I can remember them. Anyways, as a child I used to be plagued with a reaccuring nightmare, It was of an old scary house in the middle of a town. I have never seen this house or town in my life, never in a movie, real life a book or anything. I made it up in my head and it haunted me for years. Imagine the house from the cover of In The Name Of Suffering By EYEHATEGOD, or the house from the burbs. I had completely forgot about it till last night, but once it creeped back into my dreams it was just as terrorizing as I remembered it. Still struck fear in me, down to my bones. I woke up sweating and shaking, puzzled on how that dream can cause so much fear in me, even after a decade. In my dream a friend who I have really strong feelings for and was involved with for a while called me up. Frantic! Screaming and crying, I raced over to where she said she was, I jumped off my bike to see her. She turned around and was covered in blood, My heart sank and I rushed over to see if she was ok, scared out of my wits something was the matter with her I saw that she was ok and in fact wasn't hurt at all, just shook up from hitting a dog. She had hit a dog in her car and didn't know what to do so she picked it up and put it in her trunk. I asked to see the dog and opened her trunk to find the dog covered in blood, and still bleeding, but alive. I picked him up from the trunk and wrapped him in my hoodie so she wouldn't have to see him in that state, then I ran over to that house. The one I was so terrorfied of as a child. And I mean terrorfied! I ran through the yard, passed a huge hundred year old tree with a tire swing full of leaves and I flung open the door and it felt as if it were a hundred pounds, my heart beating out of my chest i started my trek up the stars, where I saw past friends and random people I have seen throughout my life, all in various room of this scary house. I'm sweating bullets, shaking, scarred beyond my own belief carrying this dog that bleeding out with my friend right behind me. I then found a woman who said she could help the dog. So I unwrapped him and handed him over to the woman, she took him from my arms and began to was the blood from his coat, and see his wounds were not that bad. I took my friend by the hand and we walked down the long creeky stairs until we hit the hundred pound door and headed to the rear of the house waiting for the dog to get fixed. we walked to some dried creek bed hoping to find some water to help wash each other off, we found a puddle and I started to wash the blood off her face, wipe the tears from her eyes and cheeks. We ventured back to the house and it seemed as if we were gone for ages. When we got back to the scary house it looked vacant for sometime, all boarded up and dusty. The giant tree with the tire swing was still there, but all the leaves had died and fallen off. And there! next to the tire swing was the dog, in perfect health, waiting for our return. He ran up yelping and barking out of excitement, wiggling and rolling over. Jumping up at her hip, licking at her hands. She turned and stared at me and smiled with tears of joy in her eyes, I grabbed her by the hand, kissed her on the cheek and we started to walk tword the creek with the dog at her side. Then I was woken up. I'm not sure what to think about this dream, there's alot going on in it. It's hard to get a grip on it, It was very vivid, lucid and scary. I can remember the little things that scared me so many years ago, like there was no laps in time at all. I feel as if my feeling for my friend is what helped me overcome my fear of this house. I knew the only way to help and stop her frantic state was to enter the house and get the dog medical attention, and I did it with out a seconds hesitation. What does the house being boarded up and vacant looking mean? Why did this 10 plus year old house resurface back into my dreams? The dreams I can never remember, and didn't start remembering until I got involved with her? I'm not going to lie when I say I'm a bit frightened to fall asleep tonight, I'm scared of the house being in my dreams again, and I'm more scared of her not being by my side to help me through it, to reassure me that it's just a house, and I'll be fine.

it seems I've run out of room

So I no longer have any room for my 7"s. I need to find some sort of stand for my vinyl, this book case is all bowed out and not cutting it anymore. Been sick, that's pretty much it. I hate it.

Generation

City Of Sin

So it' Saturday, Cool, sunny and breeze. All I can think is, boy.... am I glad to be home. I got home some time last night from a 5 day romp in las Vegas. Flashy lights, artificial lights and air of the casino, so much bad food, even more good food, friends and strangers alike. I was in Las Vegas for The 15th annual Association of Piercers Conference and Exposition. Piercer from all over the world meet in vegas for a week long Conference, offering classes the help benefit yourself as a piercer, person and help your shop out. Not to mention all the jewelry vendors from all over showcasing the new jewelry they've been working on. I myself too full advantage of my Full Conference pass and loaded up on classes, taking up ward to about 15 of them. I've put my body through hell! Little to no sleep each night, living off nothing but vegan donuts most of the days, holding myself back from blowing my lifes saving on new jewelry or other swag offered. I thoroughly enjoyed this years conference. Better classes, easier to understand, great instructors, and and overall enjoyment of the conference compared to my previous years experiences. I wasn't able to gamble really, played a dollar on the nickel slots, I told myself I'd spend no more than 20 bucks gambling. It was National Star Wars Day! And I found some Star Wars slots at the hooters casino, couldn't not play, right? I've had time to decompress from that hectic week and now can focus myself on work and bettering my health and mind. Even though I was running stressed and busy, this conference was the closest thing to a vacation since November of 09. I brought a camera along with me but was to busy to bring it everywhere, which sucks! A few night I had some amazing food, Racked up a 400 dollar bill at a nice vegan thai place with about 23 other people, wish I could have documented that. I did however shot a few things. Here's some photos I shot with my phone, when I get some downtime I'll upload the ones from my camera.