Festival of Lights

This past weekend was the Festival of light here in Downtown Riverside, and boy was it a sight to see. Friday was opening night and I was eager to see how the lights would turn out this year. So eager I left my camera at home. FAIL!!!! Friday was the busiest of the weekend, they shut down a lot of the major streets through out down town and let the people roam the streets. Super fun to experience, would have been more fun to have captured it. Saturday Danielle and I went to go ice skating and see the lights. I was still in awe at the sight of everything, plus I'd never been ice skating before. Fun was had all around and I snapped a few photos that night, couldn't really man a camera on ice. I tried, but was told I couldn't have it in the ice. Sunday was a day of swap meets, thrift stores, food and another trip to the lights. This time Danielle and I were accompanied by some friends, Julio and Fidel. The four of us spent pretty much all day together. I couldn't ask for a better way to spend a day.

I must say I am thrilled on how these photos of myself have turned out. A friend (Jared) of mine asked to use me as a test subject for his film and photography class a few weeks ago. He snapped a roll of film at my apartment and after seeing a few of the photos he took, I've become very interested in the same class he took. I just wish I could afford the time and money to go to school and work at the same time. I wish I would have taken an interest in photography when I was piercing part time, now that I'm always at work I have really no time for anything. Maybe I could work my two days off a week around a class or two. Thanks again for the photos Jared. Being as it's been a while since I've updated my blog nothing really has happened that I felt was blog worthy. I meant to sit down a write a blog about my recent trip to Texas for Fun Fun Fun Fest, but really didn't have the motivation to, also my Internet has been acting up on me. Even if I tried to updated about it, I'm sure it wouldn't post or FireFox would lose the server or something. Work has been slow for the month of November with the exception of this past weekend. I was getting a bit scared I wouldn't have my money for bills. I constantly keep my mind occupied, so I can try and drown out my urge to move. It's really all I've been thinking about. I can't get New York out of my head. Also Seattle, but I know now just isn't the time to move. It'd be super hard to find a job, or a place. I know I just need to hold off till things get better.

Hate to say I told you so

But, I guess I could have seen that coming. I'm sure things wouldn't have worked out. Halloween was fun for me this year. San Pedro, Nofx, Pennywise, Misfits and black flag cover sets. Good friends, rowdy pit and tons of spilled beer.

I Am Alive

And That's Pretty Awesome. Been having a bad week. Well not that bad, but still kind of sucky. I'm kind of sick, my sinuses are fucked to shit! I've been spitting up blood filled loogies and my nose has been running like a water fall. I dont mean a little bit of red in my spit, I mean blood filled more red than green or brown. Been working 7 days a week and still seem to lose money at the shop. I need a break, Texas next month is just what I need. I like a girl, who I'm sure likes me, but I'm sure she'll lose interest in a few weeks. Months if I'm lucky, it happens all the time. I've kind of learned to deal with it. I don't want to get to excited over her, but I can't help it. I want/need to suspend soon, I also NEED to make a trip out to long beach. I miss my friends out there so damn much. I want to start building a bike, and need to take mine into the shop and have it serviced, kind of wish I built one sooner. I will be out a bike for a week or so, bumming. I like making blogs here because I know no one reads them. It's a great way for me to let out what I'm really feling without the fear of someone using it against me or calling me out on it.

Battling Myself

I fell as if I have an ongoing battle in my mind. A battle between good and evil, right and wrong. What I feel is right and what I want right now, I strive for something I know I'll never have. I'm scared. I want to sell all my shit, moved out of my apartment and hit the road with nothing but my camera, bike, and my bag. This is the only thing I feel will make me happen. Just ride off and see what's out there. I've become to accustomed to the luxuries and possessions in my life. I'm to attached to my records, vintage shirts, odds and ends and pretty much anything I've spent time and money on. These things keep me grounded, and I know I didn't have them I wouldn't be sitting in my apartment. No longer hiding behind my things, my computer screen, glued to my couch. I feel as if I'm not meant to be stuck in one place for to long, I need to be in different places, I need change or travel. I want to ride of into a new land, sun at my back, sweat on my brow, a fresh breeze running it's fingers through my hair. Soon, soon I will know what I will do, soon I'll grow up, lose my fear and break away. I feel as if a little more growing is needed here, then I can leave.