10 years

So last night I had a dream...More like a nightmare. It's been ages since I've had a nightmare, I can never remember my dreams, so it's a rare occasion when I can remember them. Anyways, as a child I used to be plagued with a reaccuring nightmare, It was of an old scary house in the middle of a town. I have never seen this house or town in my life, never in a movie, real life a book or anything. I made it up in my head and it haunted me for years. Imagine the house from the cover of In The Name Of Suffering By EYEHATEGOD, or the house from the burbs. I had completely forgot about it till last night, but once it creeped back into my dreams it was just as terrorizing as I remembered it. Still struck fear in me, down to my bones. I woke up sweating and shaking, puzzled on how that dream can cause so much fear in me, even after a decade. In my dream a friend who I have really strong feelings for and was involved with for a while called me up. Frantic! Screaming and crying, I raced over to where she said she was, I jumped off my bike to see her. She turned around and was covered in blood, My heart sank and I rushed over to see if she was ok, scared out of my wits something was the matter with her I saw that she was ok and in fact wasn't hurt at all, just shook up from hitting a dog. She had hit a dog in her car and didn't know what to do so she picked it up and put it in her trunk. I asked to see the dog and opened her trunk to find the dog covered in blood, and still bleeding, but alive. I picked him up from the trunk and wrapped him in my hoodie so she wouldn't have to see him in that state, then I ran over to that house. The one I was so terrorfied of as a child. And I mean terrorfied! I ran through the yard, passed a huge hundred year old tree with a tire swing full of leaves and I flung open the door and it felt as if it were a hundred pounds, my heart beating out of my chest i started my trek up the stars, where I saw past friends and random people I have seen throughout my life, all in various room of this scary house. I'm sweating bullets, shaking, scarred beyond my own belief carrying this dog that bleeding out with my friend right behind me. I then found a woman who said she could help the dog. So I unwrapped him and handed him over to the woman, she took him from my arms and began to was the blood from his coat, and see his wounds were not that bad. I took my friend by the hand and we walked down the long creeky stairs until we hit the hundred pound door and headed to the rear of the house waiting for the dog to get fixed. we walked to some dried creek bed hoping to find some water to help wash each other off, we found a puddle and I started to wash the blood off her face, wipe the tears from her eyes and cheeks. We ventured back to the house and it seemed as if we were gone for ages. When we got back to the scary house it looked vacant for sometime, all boarded up and dusty. The giant tree with the tire swing was still there, but all the leaves had died and fallen off. And there! next to the tire swing was the dog, in perfect health, waiting for our return. He ran up yelping and barking out of excitement, wiggling and rolling over. Jumping up at her hip, licking at her hands. She turned and stared at me and smiled with tears of joy in her eyes, I grabbed her by the hand, kissed her on the cheek and we started to walk tword the creek with the dog at her side. Then I was woken up. I'm not sure what to think about this dream, there's alot going on in it. It's hard to get a grip on it, It was very vivid, lucid and scary. I can remember the little things that scared me so many years ago, like there was no laps in time at all. I feel as if my feeling for my friend is what helped me overcome my fear of this house. I knew the only way to help and stop her frantic state was to enter the house and get the dog medical attention, and I did it with out a seconds hesitation. What does the house being boarded up and vacant looking mean? Why did this 10 plus year old house resurface back into my dreams? The dreams I can never remember, and didn't start remembering until I got involved with her? I'm not going to lie when I say I'm a bit frightened to fall asleep tonight, I'm scared of the house being in my dreams again, and I'm more scared of her not being by my side to help me through it, to reassure me that it's just a house, and I'll be fine.